I’m ok, you’re ok, we’re all ok….!

Posted by SweetMemento to Adult ADHD Life 8 months, 4 weeks ago | 0 Comments | Post a reply

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Oh no!!! When I utter the phrase, “Nothing is the matter…” Chances are I have either moved on to my next thought, or I trying to calm myself from being on the verge of a mini explosion.  The sad thing is not quite knowing which reaction will take place first.  Will my eyes widen,  face become tense, and voice loud and shakey, or will I just insist that we move on to the next subject?!
We all tend to have hypersensitivity with adhd, and usually as an adult I have learned to brush off some things, let some go, and assert myself when possible.

However, I also learned to avoid the angry.  Push it far away until you barely even know what it is, or feels like.  It, the anger fades into a mystery, and I unravel in the misery.  So texting at random hours to say nothing, my plan is unlimited I guess..!.When people borrow things with out returning them, I’m ok!  They drop by without calling, oh I’m fine?!  They ask for favors at the last minute, well just this once!!  They expect me to include the drinks at dinner that I didn’t drink, hold up—well…. it’s cool and as a matter of fact why don’t I buy another round for you all (true story).  Through all of the things I should be saying a big NO to, I say yes, then comes anger, then comes marriage…then comes me and sadness pushing a bitterness carriage.

The truth is there are things to be honestly angry about, and ways I should handle that feeling eh-em:

Breathe in like my life depends on it (let it out for you fellow breathholders)
Say a prayer
Face the issue
Embrace the feeling behind it
Acknowledge it
Address it
Erase it…. Simple right

Yes, and with each day I am learning that being angry is a wonderful thing that signifies I’m alive just as much as being joyful, carefree, upbeat, and dandy act as cues to my emotions.  The thing about anger is knowing how to manage and express it so it is healthy and not harmful.

I don’t just get up and get mad, that seems a little scary, but I do work to admit my frustration. 

Feeling entitled to my emotions bad and good, gives me ownership of becoming a better person for myself and those around me. 

I have the responsibility to express the awesome side of anger every chance I get….that says, “Can I show you? Can I teach you how to treat me?...how to really reach me?  Only because I care for you and me…and if you will, MAY you please do the same?” This to me is the simple, lost art of angry: teaching the gift of love.

It is something I gratefully work on everyday… I know ADHD allows me to grasp the smallest things at times, however, it also allows me to see the bigger picture and in the end we really are all ok….

With love and gratitude

Sweets

Also if you have free time…I took a quiz (not professional) on a quiz site (very basic) and this was my score..but please don’t be angry with me if you don’t like your score

56% Hidden, 25% Explosive and 22% Chronic

http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/anger-styles-questionnaire

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