Just Diagnosed With ADHD (Adults)
35yr man recently diagnosed.
I suppose it has been 4 months or so now since i first started messing with the meds. There has been a huge change, but i am more lost than ever. Seems like everything these days are referred to as “before the meds” or “after the meds”
Before: I felt emotions very shallowly, if at all.
After: I am nearly overwhelmed by the intensity of emotions i can now feel.
Before: I thought of only the moment i was in. The past and future do not exist, and are therefore not important.
After:I regret most of my past actions and i am terrified of returning to that person, making most of my decisions extremely difficult to make as i fear their impact on the future of me and my family.
Before: I could adapt to any situation because nothing really mattered.
After: I can barely adapt to my wife changing her mind over supper, because “...that was not on my schedule…”
Before: I did not care, so I did not worry about nearly anything.
After: I do care, and now I am scared of everything. (literally, even this post scares me) I even have small panic attacks for extremely minor things, like my daughters spilling their milk.
I definitely feel something is not right, but if i just quit my meds, i am afraid i will find some excuse not to go back to talk to my doctor. I have been putting off calling him because i am afraid of not being able to explain my situation well enough for him to understand. “What if he misunderstands and takes me off completely?” If fact, I have an appointment to speak with a therapist, so she can help me talk to my regular doctor. If I try to think about that, it sounds so absurd, but I do not know what else I can do at the moment.
My question is: Could Vyvance cause this extreme fear? Any other ideas what could be causing this? Something i can ask my therapist, or doctor about?
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I too found myself in this similar situation recently. I stumbled on this website today and my jaw dropped. I started taking Adderall five months ago. I could not afford it, as I did not have insurance so switched to Ridalin. In denial after awhile I stopped taking it for almost a week. Till today. I broke down and went to the pharmacy. Perhaps you need an adjustment to your dosage or a switch of pill. It is a simple phone call to meet with your doctor and explain that you would like to try something else. I was diagnosed with ADD last Oct.
I told my doctor my situation, a friend suggested Adderall and I wanted to try it. Just to see if it made a difference. WELL, let me just say…that is how my doctor and I came up with the realization that it was most likely ADD. The meds took the fog away. Not a cure all, but I can now see things in a new light. Dont fear yourself. Adapt and communicate to the new you. If you fear speaking to your doctor then perhaps you need a new one.
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