ADHD in Women
ADHD, Panic, and Overcoming
Hi! I’m new to this forum! I’m in my 20’s and have battled ADHD all my life. I have always been incredibly antisocial. I was also a hypochondriac, compulsive, irritable and difficult in my relationships. I had gone my whole life being unaware of what was causing my behavior until this Summer. I developed Panic Disorder. I had always been a very worried person, but I never had the physical symptoms that usually went along with it so feeling sweaty, out of breath, and dizzy was strange and frightening. I felt out of control. Weirdly enough, the Panic Disorder was the catalyst for extreme self reflection. I feel I’ve been given a second chance at life now that I’m able to see the driving forces behind my behavior in a light I had never seen before. I had been introduced to adderall 4 years prior and it was an eye opening experience (although the first couple times I took it I felt so relaxed and tired I could have fallen asleep) The adderall, however, when taken even every other day for me, began to drain me and exhaust me (which I believe was another catalyst for the Panic Disorder) I feel more panicky when I am exhausted. Now after 4 months of extreme bedridden depression I am exercising (biking) and taking cod liver oil, eating well, making art and trying to stay positive and not embed the bad (desolate and negative) thoughts. It’s hard sometimes. Somedays I feel like I’m going crazy or I’m developing some form of autism. It feels like early onset dementia somedays haha. ADHD is rough, but I feel it is the loneliness that is more bitter than the disorder itself. Knowing I am not alone and people work with the disorder, treat the disorder and come to peace with it is really inspiring.
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