ADHD SUCKS!!!! I hate having it!!!!!!!
OK, I need to vent to some people who will understand.
The last few weeks at work I’ve been getting more and more “late” for work. I have to be at work at 8:00 but my boss tends to get in around 8:20. She has kids too and understands that when you’re a mom, it’s nearly impossible to get out of the house on time every day. There are a couple of us that all get in around the same time and she really doesn’t mind at all.
I’ve recognized though, that over the past few weeks, I’ve always betting getting in later than her. I hate that because I really appreciate that she is so flexible with me so I don’t ever want her to think I’m taking advantage of it. So, I’ve been working with the kids and really working on keeping the mornings organized so that everything runs smoothly and we can get out of the house at a decent time.
I’ve organized my whole closet so I can find all my clothes for work quickly and easily. Last weekend I organized all my bathroom cabinets and cleaned out all my make-up and stuff so I’m not fumbling around in the morning to get ready. I’ve been helping the kids to keep their clothes put away so they can get dressed and find socks and all that without me having to intervene all morning and we can all stay on task.
This morning went FABULOUS! The kids were up and dressed, the dog was fed and went out, and the kids even had time to eat some breakfast in front of the TV. I finished getting ready and was ready to walk out of the house about 20 minutes earlier than usual. I thought I’d even stop and grab a coffee on the way to work.
Then, I couldn’t find my keys. I hang my purse on the chair and put my keys in my purse EVERY NIGHT like clockwork. I know I’ll lose them if I don’t. I checked my purse and couldn’t find them. I looked everywhere and after 20 minutes my husband even came home to help me look for them. I planned to give my son a ride to school, but he ended up walking since I was now late. Then, the sitter called because she had to leave to take the kids to school, so I told her I’d drop my daughter off (which is gonna add an extra 15 minutes because it takes FOREVER to get through the drive up late at the school).
I FOUND MY DAMN KEYS IN MY DAMN PURSE!!!! I swear I checked there 4 times and didn’t see them. I shook it and didn’t hear them. They evidently slipped into a side pocket and I missed them. So, now this morning I ended up being REALLY late for work. I called my boss and made up some stupid excuse about being stuck in the line at the pharmacy and she was awesome about it, but stupid ADHD really stinks!!!! My husband is SOOOO mad because he came home to help me find them and they were in my purse. I know my son is stressed out at school because he’s probrably thinking I’m still looking for them.
I know it’s just part of ADHD and it’s part of who I am, but there are some days that are just plain lousy. It’s so frustrating because I take meds and I spend so much time and energy trying to keep those things from happening, but I guess that’s the nature of ADHD. No meds or treatment in the world will ever make it go away. All I can do is manage it the best I can.
I’m going to get on ebay to see if they have one of those car key locater things and see if I can order myself one. I just needed to vent and was feeling overwhelmed this morning. Thanks everyone for understanding. At least the day can only get better from here!!
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