Anxiety and ADHD
I guess right now I’m just scared about the what if’s.
My son is diagnosed ADHD and I’ve known for years that I need to do something to help myself. I was diagnosed as a child with ADD but my parents didn’t believe in psychiatric help really so I never got aid. I used to be able to control most of the issues but the organization lack and other vices that come with it have plagued me for my entire life. My parents were pack rats but that excuse of being used to it feels like a cop out.
I get overwhelmed. My stress level is unreal and a lot of it is brought on by the “what if” and being unable to detach and say… It’s a sink of dishes, not a nuclear waste clean up. I also do the “negative” dance and see the 2 things I didn’t get done instead of the 10 that I did. Or procrastinate because I don’t know where to start. Or that + cleaning ADD where you start something and then see something else you should do and before you know it…. 3 things are started and none are done.
So I know it’s pretty much classic symptoms. I set an appointment for a local psychiatrist. My son’s doesn’t treat adults so I just have to put faith that this Doc can help me. I’d been treated by my GP and I know that while she’s a great doctor I need the specialized care. I don’t know if my anxiety is comorbid or just a byproduct of my ADD. I suspect the latter because I can remember the performance anxiety and stomach issues as far back as 7 or even earlier.
Silly feeling scared of this. I know I am taking a step in the right direction. I know I am doing the right thing. I’m just afraid of the change.
Hopefully someone sees this before I’m off to the doc today. I work graveyard so sometimes that’s worse because all those thoughts can creep in.
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