Bipolar Disorder and ADHD
Can anyone explain why.....?
Hi there, Lynne from Australia here. Coming up for my 60th Birthday very soon. Life is very good for me…depending on my current mood swing of course!
I’ve been learning how to manage life since being first diagnosed with Bipolar 2 about 7 years ago then Inattentive ADD (Attention Difference Disorder) about 3 years ago.
I’ve done a heap of research, had various therapy, joined support groups and with the approval & supervision of my regular General Practitioner Doctor plus the Psychiatrist I was referred to for medication, last year I stopped taking Dexamphetamine & Epilim (mood stabilisers).
I was off them for about 7 months before things became a bit rocky again mood wise and after a particularly stressful time (moved in with my elderly Mum while waiting for a Nursing Home vacancy), started house renovations(traditionally a huge trigger for stress for me) a couple of physical illness’s (extreme hormone imbalance, sleep apnoea & Vit D deficiency) I thought I’d found the miracle cure when my illness’s were addressed.
I booked a holiday to NZ for a week by and travelled alone & coped beautifully (I’d previously cancelled as I didn’t feel I could handle it).... and ended having THE best time.
Then came the crash!
As my husband and I had booked a month overseas travelling to various countries for my birthday, I realised that to be able to cope, as much as I hated the thought & had been in denial, I needed to start back on my mood stabilisers. I didn’t think the Dex was needed…in fact even though I stayed on them for 2 years, I never really found them to be that helpful with my inattentivity or focus issues & with trial & error learned other ways of dealing with that. But after a week back on the mood stabilisers, I’m feeling the positive affects again & way more balanced. Oh well…I tried to do it by myself. Move forward.
Let’s face it…no one ever goes to their Doctor or a Therapist & says, I think I need to start medication because I’m so happy & life is awesome! It’s only when the contrasting depression hits to we realise all is not well.
So…after sharing that, my question is can anyone enlighten me as to WHY when I’m UNMEDICATED, and I’m talking brain chemicals, what is the cause for the moods to be so extreme with the resulting consequences. E.G.
-when I’m in a LOW state which I hate… Why do I get so overwhelmed & anxious about everything and struggle to make any decisions. Get stressed over the tiniest issue. Any basic chore like shopping for food, deciding what to cook for dinner, hate socialising & want to withdraw, feel dull & fatigued, sleep a lot & struggle to actually wake up & get out of bed Lose interest in everything. Can not read any incoming mail as I just can’t comprehend & paperwork & bills mount up & I end up procrastinating myself into total immobilisation. Can’t force myself to exercise at all. Generally feel depressed or how author Stacy Turis so beautifully describes as being in the “Dead Place”.
-when I’m in a HIGH state that I adore…Why can I return to all my usual activities, volunteer job with animals, socialise easily with friends & actually WANT to be in contact with my family. I feel intelligent & can write, attend classes that interest & quickly absorb information, can tackle problems easily, paperwork gets sorted efficiently,answer emails, become amazingly creative & have gazillions of great ideas. Help others, have energy, sleep less & wake up alert, rediscover my interest in the house again, especially cooking and start trying new recipes because I can follow the recipe and it makes sense, do basic housework (I never, ever get interested in that but that’s an ADHD thing…so boring!)
Anyway you get the gist?
I’d love some input thanks.
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