ADHD and College and Higher Education
End-of-semester burn out...now what?
Upon the basis of the following scenario, have any of you ever had to make a hard decision like this? What did you do and how did it turn out for you?
This is my first semester back in school as a graduate student and I thought it would go so well until my boyfriend and I found ourselves in a financial crisis unable to pay rent because we did not budget properly for my return to school. I ended up having to drop a class and switch to a permanent part-time student status so that I could take on a full-time job, which ended up being a blessing in disguise because I was offered the highest paying job I’ve ever had in a supervisory role doing something I actually love (and have never been able to find anything quite like this before)...now, after everything that’s happened this semester, I am having trouble motivating myself to want to stay in school. I feel like this grad school thing was a failure and that this program isn’t for me…isn’t the right time in my life, etc…
I’m allowing my ADHD to wash over me and carry me far away from school and all the hardship it caused me this semester.
It’s hard to know when to keep fighting and when to throw in the towel with ADHD…is this something I should fight through because it’s just my inability to want to buckle down and do the boring stuff when there’s so much on my plate? Do I need to simply work up some self-discipline and plow on? Or do I admit defeat and happily take up residence with my new and favorite job and see where that leads? I’m afraid to change paths BECAUSE I know I have ADHD and it is my tendency to skip around, but at the same time, this really doesn’t feel like it’s right. How do I know the difference between when I should muscle on through because I’m just experiencing symptoms versus when I should go with the flow because that might be the better thing? And how do I deal with that knowing that I have ADHD and I didn’t succeed? (Although, in all honesty, I’ll probably be a lot happier not being in school right now if I do drop the program). I know I can always take a break and go back later…but knowing that I might not continue, how do I motivate myself to finish finals? It’s hard enough when I DO plan to stick with something to get motivated towards the end…but what about when I’m not really even going to accomplish what I set out to do?
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