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Parents of ADHD Children
Frustrated, sad, depressed
Just needed a place to vent… I’ve never, ‘blogged’ before, not sure if that is even what this is but I’m overwhelmed, frustrated and depressed. I have an 8yo son, he is going to fail out of school if he continues at his current rate. He has NO learning disabilities, so he has full ability to do all the work but when it is put in front of him he becomes completely frustrated and just shuts down. I’ve sat in his classroom to help the teacher before, more to see how he was doing, he is on task maybe 10% of the time and the rest of the time he is in his own world. He has ‘friends’ but I have to carefully monitor EVERYTHING. For example he has a friend over right now.. I have to check on them every 3-5min because inevitably my son is hitting the child with something or wants to wrestle, etc. He doesn’t want to hurt, he just wants to be rough ALL the time. I am at my wits end. We have tried EVERY medication there is and he had terrible, scary reactions to all of them. The psychiatrist said he is a ‘poor metabolizer’ so the stuff just sits in his system. For example a 1/4 dose of Ritalin will keep him awake until 3am with his heart racing. He is already on a dye free, preservative free, gluten free diet… he takes high dose fish oil and I rub him down with any oil that MIGHT help. You name it, I’ve tried it. He’s a sweet boy, kind, loving, but he will never make it through school and will never have REAL friends if things continue the way they are. I’m about to ask my doctor for anti-depressants because I feel so sad and hopeless all the time, strictly because of this. And talking with parents of ‘normal’ kids makes me want to scream, they say things like ‘oh he’s just a boy’, ‘oh my kids don’t put their shoes on when I tell them either’... they don’t get it that i have to say it, literally 25 times and often times have to walk him to his shoes to have him get them on. Other people will say ‘oh yeah, I think I’ve got some ADHD, I get so bored when I have to read!’ they have NO idea what real ADHD looks like and it makes me soooo mad. I know there are people who have it WAY worse. He sleeps well, he eats well, he’s otherwise phenomenally healthy and incredibly athletic. We encourage his athleticism but unfortunately it’s only in solitary things like skateboarding, skiing, wake boarding. He does poorly at ‘team’ sports because he can’t follow directions, he bothers other kids and doesn’t know what he is supposed to do next. He’s on swim team right now, I thought that might be a good sort-of solo but still team sport. The coach says he would do well if he could pay attention long enough to know what they are practicing… story of his life! I feel like every day my ability to be patient and tolerant gets less and less. I do my best to stay positive and try not to yell at him because I know that just makes things worse. Just totally overwhelmed, frustrated and depressed….