ADHD in Women
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Hi, I’m ayumi9696, a teen with ADD. It’s nice to meet all of you.
Until recently, I was afraid there was something wrong with me. You see, I was raised by a narcissistic mother, a mother who demands and punishes in exchange for love that should be unconditional. I always felt empty when it came to my mother, and whenever I hear soppy mother-daughter stories, I feel like crying. When my mother found me hurting myself on my birthday, all she did was call me crazy.
Narcissists are unable to empathize with people or care about anyone else more than themselves, something I confused with attention deficiency when it came to conversations. I struggled to listen and share the other person’s feelings, but I couldn’t. I was terrified it meant I was like my mother: superficial and petty. I was terrified I would turn out like her, who used fear to control me, always reminding me that no one else in the world loved me but her.
I was relieved to discover this wasn’t due to a lack of empathy, but ADD. I wasn’t a bad person; I just had some difficulties paying attention.
I have never been diagnosed with ADD, maybe because of my good grades. I was good at memorizing things, but I had a hard time sitting down and studying, or I would find my mind had drifted off while the teacher was talking without even realizing it.
Again, it’s nice to meet you all, and I hope we can be friends in the future.
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