Depression and ADHD
I’m 59 years old. I was diagnosed with Dysthymia in 1996 and ADD two years ago. After many years of therapy, different doctors and head shrinkers, and on and off medications that have been changed more times than I can remember I finally found, a number of years ago, a psychiatrist that knows what the hell she’s doing. She listens to what I say and need, and works with me, as opposed to telling me what I need. So I finally found a workable combination of medications for depression. Then the ADD came into the mix and gave me a fourth medication to add to the cocktail. Which has been the keystone to my issues, or so I thought.
The Vyvanse does work amazingly well for me. The problem is the same problem I’ve had all my life, which is that, when I start something - a new job, a relationship, or pretty much anything, really, I do really well. Then ultimately it all starts to fall apart on me. I get either bored, frustrated or disillusioned after a time. I’ve gone through more jobs and people in my life than I care to think about. I am currently out of work, having been fired at the end of March.
Now I’m attempting to wend my way through the “entitlement” system and am getting more and more aggravated with everything. It’s daunting, and I don’t know how people can deal with that crap all the time. With my ADD, trying to get through the half-inch thick stack of papers and forms I received from Social Services made me wonder how, if I’m having a hard time with it - and I consider myself pretty smart - how can some of these people with less capacity to understand these things get through it? Anyway, I didn’t mean to bring my opinion of a broken system in here.
My issue is that I can’t seem to break through that damned wall in order to feel happy, become somewhat successful in the long term and to feel kinda normal. Intellectually I know what to do. Which means I’ll have to actually start doing those things, and as we all know, starting things is not part of the Adults with ADD handbook.
Anyway, thanks for reading. If you have any clue as to what the hell I’m talking about I’d love to hear from you!
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