Depression and ADHD
This is going to be a long post. Sorry. :(
Hi I am 46 years and I have been on and off in therapy all my life. But recently since March I have been in therapy and found an excellent therapist. We have come to the conclusion that I am ADD/ADHD, major depression, major anxiety, and some bipolar. So I started with my general doctor and we tried Adderall and I couldn’t sleep so she told me to try Vyanese and that didn’t do much at all. So between my therapist, general dr., and me we decided I should see a psychiatrist. So I did see that one that my therapist highly recommended and he is highly educated and well liked. So anyhow I spent 15 minutes with him talking about everything that is going on lately and he said that I am bipolar and gave me Senoqual at 100mg. I took it Thursday night and oh boy Friday I couldn’t function I was so tired and out of it. So then he told me if it made me feel like that to split it in half and I did Friday night and I still felt so groggy.
I am not 100% sure that I am 100% bipolar. I believe I am add/adhd, depression, bipolar, anxiety, and etc. I don’t know what to do.
Went and saw another psychiatrist for the first time and liked her but can’t continue seeing her in the new year because she is not covered under my new insurance. :( But I saw her and she said I am not Bipolar and that I have anxiety and depression and all she said was let’s up your Zoloft from 50 mg to 100 mg. Ugh!!!
I am seeing another psychiatrist to get tested for ADD/ADHD in January.
I am not even sure what to do at this point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(
I come from a history of having a very unsupportive, unencouraging, and negative upbringing. I have 2 sisters and my parents and I was always brought up being negative. My sisters are twins and they were always great and I was OK my parents always said.
I have a husband who is supportive, encouraging, loving and etc and we have been married for 20 years. I have two wonderful kids who are just awesome.
So since being in therapy since March we have come to the conclusion that I am scared to death of positive things in my life. I am so scared when something positive comes into my life that I do everything to make it horrible and etc so I don’t have to deal with the negative or the failure. I could go on an on but I won’t.
I have not been able to hold down a job for a long time. I have had 10 jobs in the past year and I got fired from my most recent one in July and am taking a break from working to get myself mentally better. Which right now I am so frustrated with because nothing seems to be getting better.
WHAT TO DO??????
Any suggestions, comments, anything at all would be greatly appreciated
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