Bipolar Disorder and ADHD
Lately, I’ve been questioning whether I have something else besides ADD going on. From the ages of 13-20 I was dealing with depression, substance abuse, insomnia, uncontrollable anger and self mutilation. I was finally diagnosed with ADD when I was 25 and having trouble holding down a job and maintaining a household.
I have a 6.5 year old son who was officially diagnosed with ADHD a year and a half ago. I also have a 4 month old son. Lately, I’ve been having a REALLY hard time dealing with my 6.5 year old, and it’s making me question whether there is something else going on. Please, withhold your judgments…but when I get frustrated at his acting out I scream in his face, dig my nails into his skin to move him somewhere (like when he refuses to get in the shower), dole out punishments that do not fit the “crime” (i.e., taking away television/video games for the entire week for talking back ONCE) and just act like a horrible mom in general. Then, within the same 10 minute period I am snuggling him and telling him how much I love him, while lovingly helping him get ready for bed.
This same situation happens at least once or twice a day, usually during the morning and nighttime routines. I’m at the point where it takes absolutely nothing for me to SNAP! I’m not trying to take the subject of Bi-Polar Disorder lightly, and I’m not assuming I have anything…but reading up on the symptoms it would fit some of my history.
Can anyone relate to this story? For what it’s worth: I am a 28 year old female, not currently taking medication because I’m nursing (I was on Adderall XR 20 mg. before) and feeling like I am slowly losing what little grip I had on reality….
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