Newly Diagnosed ADD - Struggling.
Just to introduce myself. I’m 27, female, living in the UK and was diagnosed 8 months ago with ADD and dyslexia. Rather than providing the confirmation of something I’ve long suspected this diagnosis has really effected me in ways I didn’t expect.
Everything I do, every little mistake I make, everything I forget or lose, every interaction I have with anyone leaves me feeling incredibly stupid, frustrated, tearful and defeated. I can’t separate myself and my own personality from my ‘diagnosis’. I feel like I am not an individual, just a walking mass of symptoms. My work in health care requires me to work both in an office and with patients. I am clumsy, ridiculously disorganised, unable to maintain any attention, even in important situations like meetings or visits to patients, I overreact to any slightly stress provoking activity. My boss recently told me I should not work with people, as this was a selfish desire and that my disorganisation made me a burden upon the rest of the team.
I shout at my partner and spend most evenings despising myself and feeling ashamed of all of the mistakes I have made during the working day.
Sorry for the rant, I’m just feeling pretty hopeless at the moment, this diagnosis just seems so permanent, if that makes sense. I feel that I have lost all control, and just ashamed and embarrassed of myself. I tried to express how I felt tonight to my partner, he told me I needed to get over the diagnosis as I was ruining both of ours evenings.
Again, sorry to introduce myself with a rant, I’ve just stumbled across this website. I hope everyone is well.
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