Just Diagnosed With ADHD (Adults)
Not sure what to do next...
I was recently diagnosed with ADD about 5 months ago. To be completely honest, I was relieved to finally have a diagnosis after years and years of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. Ever since I was young I knew I was different. I guess I slipped through the cracks of a diagnosis of ADD as a child mostly because there wasn’t much information out there at the time. I also think I was able to do well in school as a child and teenager.
My ADD didn’t become a problem for me until college, although looking back on my childhood and adolescence, there were definite signs. The unstructured environment provided way too many options and that’s where I really fell apart. Most people thought I was lazy or unmotivated or that I was selfish or that I just didn’t care about anything or anybody. That couldn’t be further from the truth.
Now I am 37 years old and trying to put my life together. Its amazing what happens to a person’s life when they don’t feel “normal” and no one understands them. I became very isolated and depressed. I spent over a decade listening to friends and family members tell me I was depressed or that I just needed to “suck it up”. Relationships were a nightmare aside from the “honeymoon phase”, which I’m sure most ADDers love because of the adrenaline rush we all get from it. My depression deepened the older I became. My gut has always told me there was something wrong, and although I was depressed, it wasn’t the cause, it was the result of untreated ADD for decades. I believe we accumulate more and more depression and anxiety the longer our ADD goes undiagnosed.
Finally with what I feel is the right diagnosis, I can begin to heal. I am only about 5 months in but I feel positive for the first time in my life. I am not trying to blame anything or anybody for my disease, but it’s hard, especially with all the years that went by undiagnosed.
I guess my question would be (after all this rambling), what do I do next? I am reading as much as I can on the subject but aside from seeing a qualified doctor regularly, where do I begin? All the information out there really is overwhelming me. I need to start with one thing, the only problem is, what is the one thing I start with?
I have so much more I can talk about. Its been 37 years with ADD and only 5 months into a diagnosis. I have a lot to share on the subject but its hard to put it all down in one sitting, especially when there are a million thoughts in my mind going at once.
I hope I may be of help someday to others who are going through the same struggles as I have. That’s for letting me share part of my story.
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