Christians With ADHD
I have ADD (not the hyperactive kind, the sluggish kind that internalizes the restlessness), PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. I work in the family business (with my unsupportive and very dysfunctional family) because I felt like a failure at normal jobs and working for my father (that doesn’t think highly of me and therefore has lower expectations of my punctuality and work performance usually) has gone pretty well. But this isn’t where I want to be for the rest of my life. I know God has better things planned for me but I feel stuck and like no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to make a change in my quality of life, and I pray about it all the time and I’m sure there’s a reason He’s not helping me get to a better place in life, but I’m starting to lose hope and I feel so alone and misunderstood. People think my ADD is just an excuse to be lazy and inconsiderate (I’m ALWAYS late, & recently I was interrupted before wishing my older brother - who’s really too old to make such a huge deal about it - happy birthday and then in the chaos of the day - what with helping dad when his back went out and had to go to the doc at last minute - forgot about not getting to wish my bro. happy b-day and now he doesn’t talk to me and his wife is just as standoffish now… it’s one thing after another in my life and has been since I was little, and I’m so tired of it. I’m so discouraged about it all lately. And to top it off, I kind of felt yesterday like my new doctor was kind of dismissive about my reasons for having PTSD (it’s from complex childhood traumas and abuse, but it was several milder things that put together, and the lack of support and means to cope, that make life scary for a child to a degree that they stay on edge), and I don’t know if I’m misreading him (with the ADD, I seem to think what someone means is plain as day but then I find out that they didn’t mean what I thought they did at all… It’s so confusing and frustrating. I feel like though we speak English, it’s like other people and I are speaking such different styles of english that it might as well be totally different languages) and about my wanting to treat everything as naturally as possible (he got on a soapbox about the herb/naturopathic industry)... Anyway, I’m really at wit’s end about all this and could really use prayers and encouragement. Thanks in advance.
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