So darn frustrated ....
Ok bear with me and sorry this is so long. I hope yo can follow along with this post. My name is Lisa and I am married to a wonderful, supportive, encouraging, and awesome husband name Glen. Have two wonderful kids. My daughter who is 17 in 11th grade has ADD/ADHD and she has been diagnosed for about 10 years now. Since she started school I have been researching and reading a lot about ADD/ADHD. I have been on and off antidepressants and seen therapists on and off all my life. This past July I got fired from my 16th job in the past two years. I kind of hit rock bottom. So I have been seeing this therapist since last March and absolutely love her.
So I have come a long way since March. So about August we decided that I needed to see a psychiatrist and finally did in September and never will I see him again. He spent 15 minutes with me and diagnosed me as being Biopolar 1 (which I have never been diagnosed as being Bipolar at all my entire life, but now that I have researched it and etc it makes a lot of sense). So this psychiatrist after seeing me 15 minutes and diagnosed me being Bipolar 1 said I will give you Senoquel on a low dose ... I couldn’t function and slept so much. So I called him and saw him again and 10 minutes later said let’s try this Risperidone medication. I said what about ADD/ADHD I believe I have that too and he says to me “who is the dr here” ... he says no you have Bipolar 1. Ok, so then he put me on Respirdone and the same thing it was horrible I was mentally and physically feeling the horrible side affects of it. He told me that he really wants to put me on Abilify so he gave me the prescription and I told him that I couldn’t get it because it costs so much. So he said well lets up the prescription of Resperidone so we did and it it just made things worse, so then my husband found out I can get Abilify through mail order and etc. So I called the psychiatrist and asked him (or his secretary) that I can get Abilify by mail order and she said OK I will have him call in the prescription ... so after waiting 3 days and anxious to start it ... it finally came and what does the idiot do he prescribes me more Risperidone. Does he listen to anyone or look at my chart before doing anything. What the hek. I need some medication and a lot of help to get me back on track and I need something that will help me focus and concentrate more so I can get better. So I finally see a psychiatrist a week from tomorrow and can’t wait and hopefully will get much better results and some long awaited answers. I also have applied for disability and when I went to my mental evaluation that took an hour and 15 minutes not 15 minutes. So frustrating!
So I have been on and off depressed, just found out that I am Bipolar 1, I still believe strongly that I am ADD/ADHD (which I know all of them are the same type of mental disabilities), I have anxiety, and etc. I feel hopeless, lost, depressed, confused, sad, hurt, lonely, powerless, and very, very, very low self esteem. But since I have been seeing my therapist since March that has dramatically changed but a lot needs to be done too.
I have never been so frustrated in my life. I believe and so does my therapist believes that I have ADD/ADHD. So I saw a new psychiatrist that I absolutely love and she referred me to get testing done for ADD/ADHD so I waited a week and called and they said I needed to set up the appointment. So I called and so I will hopefully get a call very soon to get a scheduled appointment. I don’t understand because this new psychiatrist who I am seeing doesn’t test for ADD/ADHD. Why is that??? Don’t and can’t all psychiatrists test for ADD/ADHD?????? Maybe I am back to square one and finding a new psychiatrist who can test for ADD/ADHD. I am so frustrated and upset. I want to move on and get somewhere with getting tested for ADD/ADHD I have been waiting for a very long time to find out if I am. I know I have depression and anxiety. Help!!!!!!
I am sorry for the long post, spelling errors, and rambling. Thank you for reading!
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