I apologize if this topic has been done to death, but I’m new here and don’t have the time to look back through all the posts. Feel free to point me in the right direction.
I have worked from home for most of my adult life. I’m now technically unemployed, but still doing some freelance work - still working at home. Although I sometimes have trouble waking up in the mornings, worse than that is the two or three hours after I get up, when I’m in some kind of suspended animation. Many mornings, this time just slips away from me. I make tea and eat cereal, and suddenly it’s 11:00 and I haven’t accomplished anything. Often, I’ve spent the time on the computer; it begins with checking email, which I feel like I need to do to respond to work-related emails and see what’s ahead for my workday, but inevitably I end up reading various articles, or…I can’t even say what, exactly. I sometimes do things around the house, too, but it takes me so long to get things done that the time investment seems disproportional to what is actually accomplished.
For a while I was putting on my running clothes as soon as I got up, and running before breakfast. Getting out of my robe and in “active” clothes certainly helped. Then winter set in and my motivation for that plummeted. I’ve tried forbidding myself from using the computer until I got dressed, had breakfast, walked the dog, etc. but the commitment doesn’t last. Maybe I need to stick with it longer to break the psychological habit.
Underneath the surface problems, I feel like there’s part of me that resists getting going in the morning. I feel sluggish, tired, and I want to “enjoy” my quiet me-time and not feel forced into rushing around and doing things I’m not ready for. I know it’s immature and childish, but it seems like this has hung around since childhood, when I loved to sleep in and the battle over getting up and getting to school, church, etc. began between my parents and me (and teachers). I also feel “foggy,” like I can’t think of what I should do next or what my goals are, and so I default to a convenient distraction.
Anyone else been through this? I know I’ve been spoiled by my work-from-home situation (and no kids). When I held “outside” jobs in the past years ago, I was often late, disorganized, and had lots of anxiety. I’ve made good strides in getting more organized and reducing anxiety, but not so much in this arena.
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