What if I stay like this forever?
I am a 47 year old male and I suspect I may have some type of ADHD. I stress “some type” as it does not appear to be a “one-size” fits all condition. I mentioned this to my GP a few months back and he looked at me as if I had ten heads! I even went so far as to ask him to set up a consultation with a psychiatrist. It was a massive step for me and I felt very very nervous. I don’t live in the USA where ADHD and its “acceptance” appears to be light years ahead of us in Europe. Americans seem comfortable to talk about their “meds” and culturally you seem to be able to say to anyone “I’ve gotta go…I am meeting with my therapist now to get him to renew my prescription” - I envy you! I am aware that I display a lot of the symptoms discussed on this website. I am not sure its ADHD or whether I suffered some sort of trauma earlier in my childhood which has contributed or magnified these symptoms. I know I am a caring, friendly person capable of so much but there seems to be a lot going on inside me which prevents me from reaching my potential and my goals. To elaborate somewhat, I seem to have lots of things racing through my head at any given moment. I start tasks but then either get side tracked or I become bored easily. I also find it difficult to make decisions and I procrastinate a lot. I am also capable of outbursts where I can say and behave hurtfully towards people I love. I tend to draw the wrong conclusions based on how I feel or (mis)interpret situations and make bad choices as a result. I find I am on edge a lot and I have had so many incidents with friends, family and even work colleagues who can “rub me up the wrong way” or appear to do so causing me to dismiss them. I am not sure which steps to take next as getting a diagnosis for ADHD in Europe is not easy. Many medical people see this as a form of psychosis and this in turn is aligned with conditions such as schizophrenia. I am not totally convinced about Ritalin and Aderell as I have read a lot of reports where people who were given placebos convinced themselves they felt a lot better and their symptoms had eased or gone away in some cases. I would be interested in hearing from individuals who are either in the same situation or have moved on from similar and have improved in some way with their condition
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