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I feel like I’m a fish in a bowl and everyone who loves me is outside the bowl talking to me and telling me how much they love me but I can’t hear them and I can’t feel their love. We were supposed to have a good fathers day for my husband. but everything feels empty. I know this is depression. I have a doctors appointment in the morning to talk about getting on ADHD meds and probably an antidepressant. but tonight I just feel like nothing is going to help. I feel like I can’t win. and I have no idea how I’m going to react to the meds. I wish I wasn’t this way I wish I could just be happy and normal and accept my ADHD and be relieved about it but it’s just so hard. I don’t want to be this way. I failed so many times in the past. I don’t have a job for more than six to eight months, I got kicked out of nursing school for my behavior. I have some of the highest grades in the class but they made me leave because I’m quote unquote unprofessional I’m feeling really low tonight. I know this isn’t really supposed to be a therapy board or whatever, but I can’t afford therapy and writing it down and getting out there to other people who know what I’m going through is about as close as I can get. I miss the way I used to be when I was happy. now everyday is a struggle

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Start with the antidepressant. Trust me. You’ll feel better and can see things more clearly.

Posted by organizationschmorganization on Jun 16, 2014 at 9:57am

my father had severe depression for years and one day instead of taking his antidepressant he accidentally took one of my concerta and it was the only thing that ever work in all that time . Turns out he has adhd and just needed to take concerts all those symptoms disappeared

Posted by jameskellum on Jun 16, 2014 at 6:57pm

You are not ALONE!!  I really understand how you feel.  A few days ago I was thinking about not being able to feel love for myself and from others. Here’s what I discovered ....I Have FAITH.  Not religion-ish faith.  The deep down in your bones, unshakable kind of Faith. I believe things will get better.  Although its true I have a hard time feeling love, I know I can count of faith.  I know there is an emotion in you where you can find the peace we all need.  Look closely.  Best Wishes

Posted by jetergirl on Jun 16, 2014 at 10:27pm

I was on antidepressants and got therapy for years before we figured out I had ADHD—I had to work through all of the depression to be able to dig all the way down and find the cause.

It really helped that the psychiatrist I saw to prescribe the medication gave me Wellbutrin instead of an SSRI, because Wellbutrin does have some good effects on ADHD (though it’s not quite as good as an actual stimulant).

You really do need therapy as well, though, particularly Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy that will help you break the cycle of the thoughts spiraling downward. See if there is a university or college near you that has a therapy clinic—many of them will treat you on a sliding scale based on your income. A local hospital may have a similar program, especially if they’re a public (teaching) hospital.

Posted by cinegirl on Jun 21, 2014 at 4:03am

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